Cesarean Birth

I have a sweet friend who had her #2 C-section last summer. She desperately wanted a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) and she tried her darndest to accomplish that (believe me!!!!!)....but for some reason it did not work out.
She had put together a slideshow of moms that she knows that had had between 1-4 C's...and all who wanted a VBAC. The show is their pregnancies, labors, cesarean births and beautiful babies.

Please read what this mom has to say, and then watch her slideshow. It is a way for her (all the moms) to process their births and heal their empty hearts.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PIFNemQfe3s

"Yesterday was Liam's birthday and the 3rd anniversary
of my 1st c-section. I still have a hard time
separating the two from each other. One of the
happiest days of my life, one of the worst days of my
life.

As a sort of cathartic project I put together a
slideshow that kind of depicts how I feel about it.
Whenever I listened to the song that is playing on the
slideshow, it would immediately bring me back to my
labor... the lyrics are so fitting about how I feel
about it all.

Empty by the Cranberries

"Something has left my life,
And I don't know where it went to.
Somebody caused me strife,
And it's not what I was seeking.

Didn't you see me, didn't you hear me?
Didn't you see me standing there?
Why did you turn out the lights?
Did you know that I was sleeping?

Say a prayer for me,
Help me to feel the strength I did.
My identity, has it been taken?
Is my heart breaking on me?

All my plans fell through my hands,
They fell through my hands on me.
All my dreams it suddenly seems,
It suddenly seems,
Empty"

My long hard labors ended in "emptiness"... what
should have just been an empty belly became an empty
heart, an empty woman. A feeling of incompleteness.
This slideshow depicts the whole of my experience, the
big hole of my experience.

The pictures are a mix of my labor pics and those
donated by CBAC moms- those who tried for a VBAC and
had it end in another cesarean. It is so
heartwrenching seeing all these moms laboring at home-
going for an HBAC- and having it end in a second (or
fourth in one case!) unwanted cesarean. There is a
smattering of pictures from some moms' first CS in
there as well.

Anyway, I was reading on your blog that your first
child's birthday was recently... and how c-section
could have been in your birth history... so I thought
you might "get" this... "